I live naked and barefooted, very close to Earth and Nature, in an 18-acre, off-grid, clothing-optional, food-forest intentional community (GaiaYoga Gardens), way out in the jungles of Lower Puna, far East Big Island, Hawai'i, and I have for more than 5 years now. Although there are many challenges, I love my life, and I'm immensely grateful to live where and how I do, on my own terms! I would not want to live any other way! 😁🙏💚⚡💥🔥✴️✳️❇️👣🌱✨🤙

Warm greetings all! 😁🙏💚✨🤙

In my recent posts I've been talking about how, not long ago, in the process of endeavoring to heal my broken heart, I experienced an exceptional expansion. That was a profound example of what is possible in my life, in living, breathing color, with a simple (though not necessarily easy) shift in perspective. Today as I write this, I am doing so from a far more contracted state, after pulling most of my energy back into myself once again. I've stayed focused mostly on my own tasks, and avoiding social contact. While true, that's not great, I also know clearly that I go through punctuated periods of contraction, expansion, contraction, expansion, on and on, and I know that I always find what I need in the darkness, to then be able to rise again, as the light that I am, brighter than before.

As you might guess, and might have noticed from reading my posts, I am no stranger to quite vast polar shifts inside myself and in my life, as I wrestle with world views. I expand, open, share, and connect, then something triggers a wounded part of myself, which makes me shut down and withdraw, into my myself, and my own world, sometimes for a while. Then through another significant eureka healing moment, I shift, powerfully and quickly, back into the living sun that I truly am, until my wounds are triggered again...

Each time I rise again, I rise higher, embodying more of what I have learned and integrated from the last dive into contracted darkness. Every cycle takes me closer to the core of my wound, as I heal it, layer by layer, which then allows me heal others more deeply, and to embody and radiate my true nature ever-more potently in my life. So my fall back into solitary darkness is not without purpose, even if it doesn't feel good when in the midst of it.

The treasure is found in the darkness of the cave that is our wounds, waiting for us to have the courage to face the dragon of our fears, and claim it. We're the only ones that can do it, nobody else can do it for us, healers or otherwise. This is my journey now.

Yesterday, being Monday, had two long meetings for me to attend, the Leadership Council meeting in the morning, and the community Logistics meeting in the evening, so my time to do other things was somewhat truncated, as is often the case. I left the Flow House, after the Leadership Council meeting, later than usual, around 3:30PM. Between meetings, I strained out kefir for my kefir-honey-cinnamon-cacao blend, cut up and moved several fallen bamboo culms near the Landing, took several pots from the Landing to my nursery, and I carried an extension ladder across the property in preparation to check the gutters at Kana's house.

After working, I took a shower, made myself some food, then headed back to the Flow House, to get to some of my Hive tasks, and a bit of catching up on notifications, before the Logistics meeting at 6:30PM. When the meeting ended just after 8PM, I returned to the Flow House to continue with catching up on my Hive notifications. Because I lost a chunk of time in the Logistics meeting, I was only able to get to within 9 hours of being fully caught up. I went to bed around 12AM, very thankfully I slept well, waking up around 6:30AM, doing a round of token management, beginning on this post, then getting out of bed around 8:15AM to go make my superfood fire coffee.

It's now just before 11PM, so a great time to end this post, so that I can get to a few important Hive tasks, before leaving the Flow House later in the afternoon, to strain out and blend kefir, take more photos for these posts, and then land work. I deeply appreciate you all so very much! Until tomorrow! Forward, onward, and upward, joyfully together! 😁 🙏 💚 ✨ 🤙

2024 Life Goals

1.) Heal my broken heart, reignite my heart sun, and embody a solid, healthy masculine, allowing my electric fire to shine bright, no matter what others, especially women, say or do. 

2.) Bring myself and my life back into balance, integration, and wholeness. 

3.) Do regular (naked) integral practices again, alone or with others. 

4.) Dance regularly again.

5.) Work with natural entheogens (mushrooms, ganja, ayahuasca), with punctuated regularity, as a part of my healing process again. 

 6.) Get, and keep, regular deep, integral energy-body-tantric work healing sessions for women flowing again.

7.) Prepare regular batches of my medicinal teas collected from the land again. 

8.) Make my plant nursery beautiful again.

9.) Live as an integral part of a juicy heart-resonant soul tribe community, with deep, coherent mutual and shared passion, purpose, mission, love, warmth care, sweetness, reverence, respect, aliveness, admiration, excitement, enjoyment, playfulness, work, fun, laughter, attraction, and all-level connections and relationships. 

10.) Make love with the woman, or the women, that I love, every day, as a sacred devotional practice. 

11.) Begin learning relevant coding/programming languages to more fully contribute to the sovereignty-driven technologies where I am active, like Arch Linux, Hive, Qortal, DeSo, and Bastyon. 

All photos were taken with my Motorola G Play 2024 Android Phone.

Thank you all so much who have helped me get to where I am today, and allowing me to share more of the beauty and magic from my life and my world with you, and for your continuous appreciation and support! I am truly deeply grateful! 😁🙏💚✨🤙

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